Turning the Page

I'm a big ball of emotion right now.  I'm hiding it pretty well on the surface, but I'm sure I'll crack by tomorrow afternoon.  Why?  Tomorrow is my last official day at my job.  It's the longest time I've been with one employer my entire life.  I've spent 6 years at this office and have worked with the most wonderful people.  While it's for the best, and I know that, tomorrow at 5:00 pm will be bittersweet. 

Some of the best times I've experienced since we moved here in January 2006 have been experienced with my coworkers.  Whether it's been on trips for attaining certification or just celebrating special occasions together, we have had a blast.  It's a strange situation to be in.  You don't hear of too many people willingly leaving a job that they love, but that's exactly what I'm doing.  And all of that in the midst of a recession and unprecedented unemployment across the country.  What am I thinking?!

But, at the end of the day, I'm, no WE'RE doing this all for her.  She's the reason for all of this and it is so worth it to know that I will be the one with her all day, every day.  We see that the tradeoff for voluntary forfeiting 45% of our income is a daughter who will have been raised by her mother and father, not by a nanny, daycare provider, or childcare facility.  Not that we have anything against those who have made different choices than us; we just know that it's what is right for us.

Yes, the satellite television may have to go away and we may not be able to eat out or travel as often as we used to, but we will see the payoff as we raise a daughter of the King.  I will be sad tomorrow when I say "goodbye" to my most enjoyable paying job to date, but just look at this face!  Think my sadness will last long?  Not a chance.  It's just turning the page to an exciting, new, adventurous chapter in our lives!!