Thrashing Around

Ever have one of those months? You know what I'm talking about. When you feel like, rather than just cruising through life, you're thrashing around, trying to get it all done and trying to enjoy it? That's how I've been feeling lately. It's been one thing after another; all of them fun, but still throwing us off of our routine. I'm doing my best to keep it together right now. I'm not especially stressed or anything. I know that God is just challenging me right now.

My key bible verse this week is 1 Corinthians 10:31; "Because whatever you do, eating or drinking or anything else, everything should be done to bring glory to God." What a fitting verse for me to focus on at this time. Some of you know me well and know that I'm a creature of habit. My cleaning routine is flawless, I know where everything is and when it was put there and we do the same things every day at the same time. God's decided, with His loving humor, to shake my routines up. He has declared to me, "Having a clean house is fine, but not if it interferes with your ability to spend time in My Word, socialize with fellow believers, stops you from spending as much time as you want preparing Sunday School lessons, or negatively affects your relationship with your husband." We'll He sure told me!

Now, don't get me wrong; I know that the good Lord wants me to enjoy my home and wants it to be a clean home that I can relax in. He does not, however, want me to be such a neat-freak that it thwarts my spiritual growth. He does not need an alphabetized hotel-toiletries drawer in order to work through me for the glory of His kingdom. I know I am a work in progress and that He loves me in spite of the fact that I avoid decluttering my heart by obsessively decluttering my home. I pray fervently that He will help me to ignore the stack of magazines on the coffee table and just enjoy the company of my hubby. I pray that He will turn my eyes toward Him and His Word every morning and allow blinders to keep me from seeing the craft clutter from Sunday School preparations that distract me.

Life has, and always will, require balance. God knows what my perfect balance is and I pray I'm attentive enough and willing to hear Him tell me what it is.